i finally got my ap score back. i'm totally waiting for them to send another letter saying they screwed up grading mine and that i didn't really get a five because i was 102% positive that if i passed it would only be with like, a three. i'm really glad to know that all that stressing (not to mention the cold i caught a day after the test. _A_) wasn't for nothing.

i got my new morning schedule, too. i hate that they send them out in the middle of july because the minute i look at my schedule (even if i get the two halves at different times this year) i feel my summer pretty much die off. it's like i'm starting a new school all over again since i have to spend half my day uptown in a building i don't even think i've ever seen. i really, really hope one of the five other people from my school has the same classes as me so i can cling to them the whole time. i'll be so lost on my own. orz


and jinwoon has officially kicked jokwon from his position as my favorite in 2AM. ♥

i really had no idea there were different types of cake icing. where has whipped icing been all my life? :(



i like, cried with laughter watching this and i have no idea why. we used to sing this all the time in class well, it was my lunch period but whatever. :'D

edit:

hoooooly shit.

random story time: one time when i was using the donghae laugh ringtone you made, i was in orientation for my nephew's school and as soon as the teacher paused my phone rang. or rather, it laughed. :'DD i couldn't keep a straight face afterwards.



laksdjflasjdf i'm getting absolutely nothing done today. .__. there's all this shit that i was going to do and it's past noon and i haven't done any of it, omg. i'm about to just go watch 7 pounds since my sister has to return it some time or another and i know she hates it when she lends me movies and i never watch them. i try, honestly. ;;

today's the day i get my new phone and i still don't know which i'm going to get. i don't even know if i want the ipod or not anymore tbh. there's a cheaper mp3 player that does virtually the same things, but if i'm going to get one i want an actual ipod. but then again i don't know if we can really afford it. or if i even really want it. i don't know what i know anymore. .-.

and because i think i might do this for as long as i'm reading ct, quote of the day:

“Listen here, bitch. Here’s what went down. This nigger wants a dime, right, so I hook him up, straight business. Then this nigger is up in my face, right? Saying the shit’s light, and I’m sure you know straight up that you don’t fuck with the Dong Bang Shin Ki. So I told the nigger to strap up or I was going to lay him out.”

why are there so many kpop hate memes? haven't we all established the fact that fandom has no legit hate? tbh i'm not sure whether the fact that everyone's too peaceful/passive aggressive/whatever to actually wank is a good thing or not. :x

went to the library... sometime this week. the summer runs together in my head. _A_ originally went there for The Great Gatsby for my summer reading thing, but then i saw Everything Is Illuminated and Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close and thought 'fuck summer reading \o/' i'm halfway through Everything Is Illuminated and lakjsdfl there's so much they cut out in the movie. D: this is one of the only books that can make me laugh out loud, cringe with awkwardness, and confuse me all on the same page while having me love every second of it. well, Magical Thinking did too. BUT STILL.

and i decided to try chasing taboo by tohosexy . this shit reads like a cheap erotica paperback sold in foodlion, what the fuck. D: i wonder how far i can get. /masochist

after having a samsung phone for the past year i vowed that i wouldn't get another no matter how pretty because the battery life (while it could be worse) is pretty sucky. then i saw the samsung magnet and to hell with vows. D: i was torn between the magnet, lg neon, and the quickfire and i don't think i've ever been so indecisive, ever. my arguments:

• quickfire: it has a touchscreen, it's a slider, and it comes in a pretty shade of orange. BUT i heard the touchscreen can be a little screwy and it's kind of ugly tbh.
• neon: it has a touchscreen, it's also a slider, and it has really pretty buttons DON'T JUDGE ME, OKAY. on the down side it looks almost just like the rumor/rant and it only comes in green which is completely unacceptable. :(
• magnet: it's pretty, it doesn't have the problems that touchscreens have, it's free if i order it online, and above all else, it's orange. cons: its battery life is on the lower end of the spectrum and it doesn't slide. boo. that, and it looks like every other smartphone/blackjack/whathaveyou.

notice that i said almost nothing of technical capabilities. /shallow

i'm going for the magnet because i have to pay for my phone myself if i want an ipod touch for my birthday and it's the orange-iest. the story behind the orange thing: i named my electronics after shinee members according to what color they wore in love like oxygen (except for key; i named a stuffed cow after him and i really don't remember why) and i don't own anything gold because i hate that color. closest thing i had was an orange cellphone so i was like 'sup jonghyun?' and yeah. I'M LAME, I KNOW. D:

genie is growing on me in that sort of endearing fungus sort of way. i still have no love for etude, though.

dear couple that lives up the street,

please keep your spastic puppies under control. on my way back from jogging, your creepy-ass chihuahua chased me halfway to my house. while i've never made such good time on the way home, i'd rather not be scared shitless that i'm gonna be mauled by an animal not even a third of my own size.

no love,
the girl down the street that had to tell you what cross country is.

first and foremost, nothing in here is really related. at all.



asldjflasj stop trying to be my favorite again, taemin. DD: i don't know if diesel knows who exactly wears their clothing and all, but between aki and taemin i'm considering spending all my future earnings on nothing but diesel except for their shoes because i still think they're fug. and there's just something wonderful about the fact that they're oraaaaange. ♥




WHERE HAS THIS BLEND BEEN ALL MY LIFE? :( or better yet, where has nujabes been all my life? i loved silver morning + battle cry off the samurai champloo ost but i never really got into him other than that until yesterday. i adore pray off the japanese gangster album (that he may or may not have done. it's not on the hydeout productions page, so idk.) and some of the songs on hydeout productions 2nd collection. especially imaginary folklore.


and finally

sure, it's nichkhun and all, but omg boom. ♥ he should just join 2pm and be done with it. :'D i still don't know what's going on with the random dude in nothing but a speedo, though.

other:
` if brian joo actually checks the pages of the people that request to follow him on twitter he's gonna think i'm such a creeper. seriously. _A_
` i can't really decide if i like lynch. or not. i kind of almost get that 'been there, heard this' feeling from them. it's pretty balls because i really want to like them for some reason. :<
` why can't i win spider solitaire on difficult? D:

contacts for astigmatism suck balls. i know that i need them and all because i have to constantly try to reposition regular contacts so everything isn't blurry, but it takes so fucking long for them to settle. especially when i rub my eyes. D: at least i don't have to take my glasses off and clean them every ten minutes, though.



i keep watching this just for taecyeon's face right after he hits chansung in the eye at about 35 seconds. i empathize with chansung or whatev because i know it hurts like a bitch to get hit in the eye like that, but taec's face is fucking priceless. :'DD he goes: *dancing* → WHAM → '...oh shit' → 'just walk it off, you're okay.' i don't think he realized how hard he hit chansung, but either way chansung is more professional than i could ever be; i would've stopped dancing and hit him back. /maturity

also, i have to get up at seven in the morning for the sunday school convention. it's really hard to study for a bible quiz when you don't believe the things that happened in the bible. idek how i went from resident heathen child that only goes to church because she can't stand her mother's incessant bitching to their last hope at winning something at convention. you just don't know bad i want to be like 'o hay, i'm agnostic and don't really give a shit about this. in fact, during the sermons i like to make up gangster AUs and plan out homosexual fanfiction.' i went to vacation bible school all week hoping it would save me from having to study at home and i learned jack shit. i did get to know one of the boys at our church and i swear he's channeling diva!key. he's so fierce and i fucking love it. ♥

so i suppose it's time to pull an all-nighter (for mark to be the shortest book there sure is a shitload of facts to study). and madelyn93, i think i'll have your fic done sometime next week. hopefully.

consider my food!photo virginity broken. no joke, i could live off these. ♥ nevermind the fact that i pretty much do.

i spent about three to four hours cleaning my room today and it's still not clean (i did manage to get reacquainted with my carpet, however, and discovered that it is in fact green). seriously, if it were up to me i'd just throw everything away and start over. and by everything i mean furniture and all. it's just so frustrating to know that i can't get everything completely clean. ;; the way i see it, i either don't clean at all or clean everything so that it's spotless. there can be no in between. _A_ but while i was cleaning i listened to 1/4 sentimental con.troller, misty blue's new album. it's... okay? nothing sticks out to me so far. i really like the intro, though. it reminds me of something that would be played in a tim burton movie (speaking of which, i never knew he directed sleepy hollow; in fact, i didn't even know johnny depp was in it until i watched it again last week). i guess it's just that i'm not the biggest fan of pastel music. it starts to run together in my ears after a while.

oh, and i got my report card and omfgyessss i passed art. 8DD for once, i'm glad that my teacher was biased towards me because i did jack shit the last couple months.

also, it took three photos of jaebum's abs in conjunction with the fact that he speaks fluent english/has a myspace for me to finally feel bad about perving over famous asian men over the internet. it took one more picture for me to get over it.

it's like, the holy trinity or sth. ♥



knowing that they had so much fun on the tour makes me happy~
i have this kind of new found love for myk, too. it probably has something to do with the videos of him walking through some random subway (with some really nice graffiti on the walls, srsly) playing guitar and singing. plus, he puts off this really calming vibe, like he'd be the perfect person to just sit and sip tea with. it's nice.


ETA: who the fuck eats four packs of ramen at once? and with a can of spam mixed in, no less. oh, mithra. _A_

because despite being half thai, he's used to the stereotypical asian jokes. ♥ drawn on the white board during lunch.

i kind of seriously love the choreography in this video. i don't know why, i just do. ♥

taemin's hair looks... odd when it's not straight. the color is gorgeous, though. and jonghyun's hair doesn't do it for me although it makes me miss miyavi's skittlehawk. as far as the song, it's fun to sing but i didn't fall in love with it as quick as with 'it's you' despite loving the hell out of minho's rap.

and (like almost everyone else) i lol'd at onew "dislocating" his teeth. i'd like to know if he was going up the stairs or down but either way, most people don't fall on their face and fuck up their mouth. i'd pay good money to see him smile without his two front teeth. :'DD

brb, dying a happy death.

my life has this tendency of falling apart when i pay attention to it. it sucks.

i just finished watching schindler's list. we're reading night by elie weisel and someone mentioned how they watched schindler's list in jrotc and how it was a good movie. i had been meaning to watch it for the longest and it just happened that i caught it right before it started. honestly, it fucking broke my heart and ground the pieces into the floor. i didn't cry until the end when he broke down and went on about how he could've saved more people. it was just... amazing. and one thing that really got me was the little girl with the pink tinted coat. i thought i was just seeing things when she was stumbling down the street because the coloring was so subtle that it kind of makes you go 'wait, what color is that?' but the whole movie is just beautiful and heart breaking.

and on the topic of the holocaust, one thing that i believe i read somewhere in our section on social psychology was that when people say that they hate all nazis, they're underestimating the power of the situation and the power of obedience. it said that maybe someone doesn't have to be a downright cruel person to do what they did and that if placed in the same situation many others would've done the same. that's a scary thought.

on a happier note: hairspray is beyond amazing and i want to see the play so bad right now.

so, i'm going on something like a hiatus. i'm not really sure i'll be around this month, although i think i'm still in for the shinee bb. but this isn't to say something dramatic has happened or i'm about to enter this ~*speshul*~ phase of my life. really, i'll probably just be chilling out playing harvest moon and listening to music. :D


i know, i have a way with names. the first sheep i get will be named myk. :'D




...i don't want to say 'later' or anything, because i'll probably still be lurking. but anyway.

if i'm doing this text thing right. it's like twitter, but not.

it took me for-fucking-ever to pick a new hairstyle. i was seriously having a crisis like poupée is real or something. ;;; it's probably my sister's habits rubbing off on me. yesterday we spent almost an hour in cvs trying to decide whether we needed a humidifier or vaporizer, whether it should be cool mist or warm mist, and whether the air in her house is considered dry or not. then we started wondering what exactly causes a stuffy nose. obviously, mom should never send us out to buy anything together.

i have a paper due in english next week and she's already made it clear that she won't accept late papers since she told us like, a month in advance. i still have to go to the library and finish the research, make an outline, and type it up. i'm really scared that i'm cutting it too close. why is english kicking my ass so hard this year? i even have the easiest teacher in our grade. .___.

also, my copy of 武士の一分 (love and honor) won't play right. it's like a chunk of it's missing or something and it's irritating as shit because i really want to know what happens. i thought it was just because my ps2 is dusty, but i cleaned it and it still won't work. D:


meme from candiroxmysox ~

- Anyone who comments to the entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LiveJournal. (You don't really have to..)
- Explain why you're using that wallpaper.
- Tag people whose wallpapers you're dying to see, and PM them to do this meme.
- Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on~

( my cluttered desktop whose background i really need to change. )

1. i have this wallpaper because i adore the zune windows theme but was too lazy to change the default wallpaper that comes with it.
2. the 'trauma archives' folder has everything in it: my scans, photos, art, music, macros, graphics, homework, guitar tabs, music videos, writing, EVERYTHING.
3. ignore the coat west video, please and thank you.

everything else is self explanatory. tagging... whoever. :x